melayneseahawk: (too fond of books)
Or ruin. Who knows?

Today I applied for a part time sales position at a local small-time chain pet supply store in my neighborhood. Yes, my depression is far from managed right now, but we're trying something new that hopefully (fingers crossed!) will fix things. Also, being cooped up in the house with nothing to do is definitely exacerbating my symptoms: the depression makes me bored with my usual distraction techniques (tv, reading, World of Warcraft), so the time can only really be passed by napping, which is also not good for me.

So! Part time job to get me out of the house. We'll see how it goes.
melayneseahawk: (nom)
Found out today that I did not get the job I had interviewed for. This is not a terrible thing, but it still kind of sucks. Nik made the awesome point that there is a false dichotomy when one applies for a job: the result is not good/bad, it's good/neutral. So, neutral, but it still makes me a little grumpy.

I restart physical therapy for my knees today. My old PT isn't there anymore, so I get to start with someone new, but that's alright. I'd just love to be able to walk down a flight of stairs without cringing and not have to worry about fucking up my ability to walk if I'm not uber careful on uneven ground. In case you didn't know, Seattle is really fucking hilly and I refuse to carry a cane when I shouldn't actually need one.

Also, it is hot. Seattle, why is it hot? You're not supposed to be hot. Bleh.

(See how interesting my life is? :P)
melayneseahawk: (serotonin)
Haven't heard back from Panera or the crepe place, though I'm not surprised. I wasn't particularly optimistic about my chances with either of those. I really need to go out pounding the pavement to find other job openings, but it's just so depressing. Monday. I'll do it Monday.

New news on the medication front, at least. medical babble )

Also started a regimen of stupid-high doses of vitamins B12 and D, because apparently my levels are super-low, which can cause mental health problems. Oh, it would be wonderful if all I needed to feel better was a fistful of vitamins, but I doubt I'll be that lucky.

looking up

Monday, 20 February 2012 16:19
melayneseahawk: (double)
Have a job interview tomorrow for the crepe place down the street. Also stopped by Panera and, while I didn't get a flat-out no, the manager said she had to talk to her district manager about bringing me back in. So, work options maybe, which is better than I had yesterday.

Managed to write through the scene that caused my [ profile] stargate_summer to stall out last year, and did some basic outlining of the gaps I need to fill in what's already written and what needs to happen after that. Now I just need to write, a lot. Haven't felt motivated the last few days, but I'm hoping I can break that today. Or maybe I'll work on something else. I just really need to write today.
melayneseahawk: (blessed are the dumb)
Live-bloggin' from work, where I'm one of the babysitters for this clusterfuck of a show. The Embassy of [name of small African nation redacted] rented the theatre to put on some native play, translated into English. Yay, Cultural Arts Center putting on Works of Culture. Hooray.

They were late.

The catering from another event on campus showed up because they got lost.

The actors don't know how to stand where the light is, so I've been having to reach over the person running the pre-set cues to add lights where the people are standing.

The play itself is pretty awful--and a number of major plot points and jokes revolve around rape and other abuse of women.

Kill me now?

(Thank God it's almost over. I'm going to need booze when I get home.)

ETA: Dear God, my spelling is atrocious.

big update is big

Thursday, 19 May 2011 10:36
melayneseahawk: (caffeinated)
Ye gods, I hadn't realized that it had been so long since I posted. Wow. I have been busy, at least. Here's the basics:

Done done done with classes at the community college. I'm not done with school, of course, but at least I'm done with that shithole.

I got into Point Park, and the Conservatory offered me $14k in grants as long as I keep my grades up. Which, since that's my plan anyway, is freaking awesome. And that's not including work study and anything else I get in the way of financial aid from the university itself. So, I'm going to be in Pittsburgh in the fall. Now to work out the details: orientation, sorting out an error with my FAFSA, apartment hunting, etc.

I'm still working at the theatre on campus, but I'm off hunting for a second job, so I can earn some more money. I'm spreading the net really wide, of course, which means lots of retail and waitressing. Hopefully I'll get something, but I'm really hoping for the pirate tavern (no joke) or Victoria's Secret (employee discount!), or something I can wear t-shirts and jeans to. I want so much, I know.

I should be writing, but instead I've been helping the Geekling fill out job apps for himself. If I thought one set was killing my soul, just imagine how two sets is making me feel. *stabs eyes*


Wednesday, 6 April 2011 11:49
melayneseahawk: (cursor)
Not dead, just very busy. Here's a basic update of the last two weeks:

Have gone back to work, which is a good thing. It means money, and it means something to do, and it's a constant ego boost, because both my bosses (I have two, it's complicated) think I'm wonderful. It's nice to be appreciated. :D

Mood has generally been pretty good, though of course I've started experiencing one of the negative side effects of one of the meds. Actually, I've been experiencing it for a few months, but just realized it. Basically, I've gained about 20 pounds in three months. Now, I was too thin before that, so about 10-15 of those are welcome, but it means that most of my pants don't fit anymore and my tits are now enormous. Will be adding exercise to my schedule (finally; should have done that years ago), and changing my eating habits a bit, but I'm not sure if I want to go clothes shopping before I lose that five pounds. On the one hand, it sucks that only two pairs of jeans and my three work pants still fit. On the other, I don't want to spend $40+ per pair on jeans, only to have them potentially not fit if the weight comes off. If anyone has any thoughts on the matter, I'd love to hear them.

I've officially finished four of my six college applications (one rejected me before I could finish, the other I still have to do the interview). I'm all-but-formally-accepted to one of my top schools, which is really great, and I should be hearing back from the others soon. Then I have to visit the ones I haven't seen, and make a decision. Eep.

Have also decided to let my [ profile] stargate_summer fic wait until next year. Between my schedule and [ profile] theemdash's, there was no way it was going to be done in time. Apparently, it takes me two years if I want to write something novel-length. *shrugs*

Had a fight with a new recipe yesterday and the day before, and while I've learned a lot, it's still not perfect. I mean, it tastes good, but it doesn't look right yet. But I have some ideas for how to deal with that, so it will take more experimentation when I have time (and more blue food coloring).

I feel like today is going to be a spammy day, so I'll likely see you all again soon. :P
melayneseahawk: (explode)
Have broken my "don't wind up in the hospital" resolution already: spent Sunday afternoon in Urgent Care with the Mysterious Bump of Mystery on my forehead. First I thought I'd banged it on something, then when my whole forehead swelled up the advice nurse thought it was an infection. The Urgent Care doc took one look at my byzantine medical history and decided to go a little crazy: antibiotic cocktail and take me off my new birth control, just in case it was an allergic reaction.

Had follow-up with my regular doc today, who listened to my symptoms, poked me in the head, and declared it an allergic reaction to a spider bite. Off the antibiotics, back on the birth control; 'round we go, where it stops, nobody knows.


On the other hand, I finally finally FINALLY took that make-up exam from last semester. You know, the one that was giving me panic attacks? It wasn't great, but at least it's over.

And then I got myself back on the schedule at work, and rewarded myself with ice cream, so all and all I'd call today a win.
melayneseahawk: (double)
Finally went over to Borders to see whether I still have a job and--surprisingly--I do. And, in the time I was gone, the Boss was able to fire CafeBoss and replace him, so that means I no longer have to do the spy gal deal. And I'm going to be able to get good (re)training at another store, so when I go back to work I'll actually know what I'm doing.

Here, it's hot, have a yummy summer recipe.

Mel's Ginger Limeade
4 limes
4 by 1 by 1 inches of ginger
8 tablespoons sugar
filtered water

Use a pitcher with measurements on the side. Juice limes. Peel ginger and coarsely chop. Add limes, ginger, and sugar to the pitcher and mix. Add water to the 2 quart line, then add ice to increase liquid level an additional cup. Shake vigorously and chill at least 12 hours before serving, shaking often if possible (like, whenever you go near the fridge).

Mix will become more gingery over time, so let it steep until you like the way it tastes and strain out ginger pieces and any lime pulp. Serve chilled.
melayneseahawk: (double)
To the mothers on my flist, and to the mothers-of-my-flist. May you be appreciated this much every day of the year.

As of yesterday afternoon, I finally have a job, at the café at the local Borders. My training starts next week. Entertainingly, I'm being hired to help retrain the café staff, which means they're going to be paying me more and giving me more hours. It's kind of exciting.

oh boy

Thursday, 29 April 2010 11:39
melayneseahawk: (gambler)
Job interview today. If I'm very, very lucky I'll have a job when I walk out. If I'm somewhat lucky, they'll still have to call my references.

I'd really, really like to have a paying job soon. My plans for the next six months kind of hinge on it. A lot.

melayneseahawk: (tales)
I am very, very glad I decided to get new betas. I already have editing suggestions for Cam's voice, foreshadowing, and typo check for Act I, and I'm just about to send them Act II (and a revised Act I as appropriate). We're actually going somewhere!

I've got an entourage now, though. :P

Also, I tried to work on Act III while my mom was meeting with her new landlady, but instead I wound up advising on their interior design. People are weird when you tell them you've built sets.

This made my day:

Also, a bit of amusement from work yesterday: I had one of the costume designers from Round House Theatre come in to buy a sweater vest for their production of The Picture of Dorian Gray. It's apparently a modern retelling, and now I want to see it even more, if only to sit there and say "I sold them that vest!" I'm such a dork.

Mm, sleep...

Saturday, 8 August 2009 23:22
melayneseahawk: (crazy)
Survived 4 hour shift after having not slept last night and being up and about all day. Will now crash out.

Alas, I will not be able to catch up on my sleep debt completely; I have work at noon.
melayneseahawk: (shoulders of giants)
Trying to function on no sleep doesn't get any easier (thank you, brain, you finally start working and then you go into overdrive). Met up with A and Sarah to switch over some of the banking stuff; with any luck (heh), the majority of the Monologues stuff will be tied up with a pretty bow and ready for me to pass to Sarah by the end of the week. I suspect the actual handover will take a little longer--and that Sarah will have a lot of questions for a while--but it's not like I really have anything more important to do, right?

I'm really looking forward to actually having a work scheduled, though. I'm getting really tired of playing the "Can you work this shift...this afternoon?" "Ye-ah..." game. Really, really tired. But it's money, or it will be eventually, so that's some small comfort.

While I wasn't sleeping last night, I started and finished Robin McKinley's Dragonhaven. It's an interesting story (it's certainly different, which is something), but it's got the worst narrative style ever. Imagine a memoir being written by someone who doesn't quite understand the importance of sentence structure. And didn't take notes while things were happening (ok, that at least makes sense), but the author decided that the person would a) remind us of the fact all the time and b) use that as an excuse to include almost no dialogue.

(A few weeks ago, I finished Gordon Livingston's Too Soon Old, Too Late Smart, at Mom's urging, which pretty much encapsulated why I dislike self-help books: there was maybe one true, useful thing in the 40-odd pages, and the rest was a blend of "let's state the obvious" and pop-psych masturbation. Gross.)

I also finally got around to reading [ profile] theemdash's A Loose Bolt in a Complete Machine, [ profile] copperbadge's Sing Morning Out of Night, and [ profile] paian's Safe as Houses. The first two were amazing, the third was equally so though not really my speed content-wise.

Hopefully I can do my own writing soon...
melayneseahawk: (ship)
Sign-ups for the [ profile] jd_ficathon opened today. Easy-peasy ficathon. Go sign up.

Yesterday, I went in to work for a two-hour meeting at 8a. The meeting lasted until 11a, and then my boss said "want to work this afternoon?" More fool me, I said yes. So, three hour meeting, plus seven hour shift, and it was just me and the manager from 4p until 7:30p, when we finished prep for the next day, because people had called out. My feet hate me.


Friday, 31 July 2009 00:25
melayneseahawk: (not starbucks)
Survived first day, but oh, I hate retail. Hate it.

Going to bed now, will post more in morning.
melayneseahawk: (mortal peril)
Aah, my manager just called to have me work...tonight.

And (I can't believe I'm saying this) I have nothing to wear.

So! I get to run over to the mall, pick up a pair of shoes at DSW, and then buy an outfit to work in. I was putting off any large purchase until the weekend; we have a meeting on Sunday for the fall styles, and we get an additional discount then, plus I have a 50% on my first purchase, thought I don't want to use it yet.


What was I thinking, applying for a fashion-based job.
melayneseahawk: (double)
Survived orientation. Lots of talk about loss prevention and stuff. Filled out paperwork, etc. I have to type up the dress code dos and don'ts; they're hilarious.

My brain seems to be functioning somewhat better now; hopefully I can get some major writing done. I'm going be sending my beta something in the next few days, but I'm hoping it's a more complete draft than what I have right now. *facepalm*
melayneseahawk: (not a good sound)
I've figured out the root of this most recent episode, not that it helps much. My brain has a disturbing habit of self-sabotage that it really, really needs to grow out of. I'm going to get to work tomorrow (yay, orientation) if it kills me, but the way I'm feeling right now? It might.

Add to this the fact that there are some side-effects from the Seroquel that haven't gone away. The meds don't make me sleep more; they just make it harder for me to fight the urge to stay in bed. I've long used sleep as an avoidance tactic, and the Seroquel just makes that easier. But I don't think there's anything else I can try that won't cause harder problems to deal with.

How many negatives were in that sentence? Eew.

[ profile] stargate_summer is going nowhere fast, which sucks. I really want to finish this, to be able to say I accomplished something this summer. (Getting the job doesn't count; keeping it is much more important.) I feel like the words are there, but I just can't get them on the page.

I guess I'll go eat something, and then see if I can sit down at write something: some filler for Act II, an outline for Act III, the end of Act III (which is relatively clear in my head), something. I know I'll only feel worse if the only thing I accomplished today was to get up (eventually) and fold a few loads of laundry.
melayneseahawk: (omg)
I have orientation on Wednesday. And, my new boss has already suggested me for the special fashionista training, which would mean an automatic raise.

Aah, so exciting.


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