Happy Birthday to Me?
Monday, 19 April 2004 22:40![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
melayneseahawkSo, this year, my birthday got eaten by not only the show, but also by English journals, the fact that Dad was out-of-town, and the fact that Mom had a conference. If I wasn't feeling depressed and unloved before, I most definitely am now.
Should be writing English journals. And I'm not. At least it looks like I'll finish the one due tomorrow before school starts, though I'll have to copy it into the journal and I have two previous (read: late) to do.
It's so strange. Guys are so strange. There is a spectrum of how guys respond to and think about touch. There are those that won't even hold your hand. And then there are those that are like "let me grab your ass...just because it's there and I can." Finding the guy in the middle, who can touch in a comforting way or a sexual one and knows exactly when to do either, who understands when you need touch and when you can't stand it, he's a find. That's what I need; a guy who understands that and is willing to be like that with me. -Sigh.- But it still never works out, even if it looks like you have found him. Damn societal norms!
Well...the journal will be mostly done. I give up. I'm going to bed.
Should be writing English journals. And I'm not. At least it looks like I'll finish the one due tomorrow before school starts, though I'll have to copy it into the journal and I have two previous (read: late) to do.
It's so strange. Guys are so strange. There is a spectrum of how guys respond to and think about touch. There are those that won't even hold your hand. And then there are those that are like "let me grab your ass...just because it's there and I can." Finding the guy in the middle, who can touch in a comforting way or a sexual one and knows exactly when to do either, who understands when you need touch and when you can't stand it, he's a find. That's what I need; a guy who understands that and is willing to be like that with me. -Sigh.- But it still never works out, even if it looks like you have found him. Damn societal norms!
Well...the journal will be mostly done. I give up. I'm going to bed.
