Depression really sucks.
Saturday, 21 March 2009 13:44![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
melayneseahawkSo, up until yesterday I managed to go a few weeks where my mood was better! To the point of actually being good! most of the time. And it was wonderful, and I was genuinely happy for the first time in longer than I can remember (though mathematically it has to have been more than a year) and I thought things were finally getting better.
And then there was yesterday.
And now I'm pretty deep into depressed-but-not-anxious mode, which we still haven't figured out how to deal with, because on the drug side anti-depressants either make me sick or crazy, and on the behavioral therapy side we were focusing on the basic "get up, eat three meals, go to bed" level of things. I'm pretty sure I'm going to make it to work today, but it's really going to suck.
And I don't have another day off until the middle of next week, so I can't even take some time to try to put my brain back together.
I really, really hate this.
(Also, I hate how you've got things like "depressed" or "anxious" as mood options, because most people do not know what that really feels like. Grr.)
And then there was yesterday.
And now I'm pretty deep into depressed-but-not-anxious mode, which we still haven't figured out how to deal with, because on the drug side anti-depressants either make me sick or crazy, and on the behavioral therapy side we were focusing on the basic "get up, eat three meals, go to bed" level of things. I'm pretty sure I'm going to make it to work today, but it's really going to suck.
And I don't have another day off until the middle of next week, so I can't even take some time to try to put my brain back together.
I really, really hate this.
(Also, I hate how you've got things like "depressed" or "anxious" as mood options, because most people do not know what that really feels like. Grr.)
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