hopes and dreams are shattering apart
Tuesday, 30 December 2008 01:01![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
melayneseahawkIt's so weird. Most of my co-workers make me feel so old: they're 4-5 years younger than me (and seriously immature on top of it), and I listen to them talk about the horrors of high school and can't help but do that nostalgic "When I was in high school..." thing. It's terrible.
And then, I was chilling in the back room with the other two shift supervisors (We got another one and he's someone I've loved working with in the past!), and the situation was the exact opposite. The one guy is about 5-6 years older than me and having this on-again off-again thing with his once and future live-in girlfriend. The other is at least 10 years older than me, and married, and was laughing at the other guy about not missing the drama. And then there's me, single (and not even getting the chance to enjoy it, but that's another thing) and footloose and fancy free, and I feel so damned young. (That also happens with N sometimes, but the age difference is the same as with the first guy.)
It's even worse when I have the same feeling with my own friends from high school. One of my best friends is basically engaged (looking at wedding dresses and bribing me by letting me wear a suit as long as she can make my hair pretty), most of the rest are graduating and looking at/attending grad schools. And then there's me: college dropout.
(I can't even talk about the lawyer thing until it's a bit later.)
Oh well, shit happens. Doing what's expected is boring. I'll stick with my Pastaroni and resist the urge to have a beer with it and then get back to my horribly depressing fanficcage.
And then, I was chilling in the back room with the other two shift supervisors (We got another one and he's someone I've loved working with in the past!), and the situation was the exact opposite. The one guy is about 5-6 years older than me and having this on-again off-again thing with his once and future live-in girlfriend. The other is at least 10 years older than me, and married, and was laughing at the other guy about not missing the drama. And then there's me, single (and not even getting the chance to enjoy it, but that's another thing) and footloose and fancy free, and I feel so damned young. (That also happens with N sometimes, but the age difference is the same as with the first guy.)
It's even worse when I have the same feeling with my own friends from high school. One of my best friends is basically engaged (looking at wedding dresses and bribing me by letting me wear a suit as long as she can make my hair pretty), most of the rest are graduating and looking at/attending grad schools. And then there's me: college dropout.
(I can't even talk about the lawyer thing until it's a bit later.)
Oh well, shit happens. Doing what's expected is boring. I'll stick with my Pastaroni and resist the urge to have a beer with it and then get back to my horribly depressing fanficcage.
